Well, it happened.

Yesterday Steven broke up with me.  It was definately something that I wasn't expecting, especially since we had had a really fun weekend together, but he said he just couldn't do the distance for as long as we were going to have to do it.  I guess I can understand that, its not fun living apart, and its not fun only seeing each other on the weekends.  In the end I guess I just wanted it more, and that is the problem I suppose.

I don't even know really what to say about it.  I'm upset, I'm sad, and I just don't know if I can do this again.  I don't want to start over.  I don't want to move on.

I guess it doesn't really matter what I want though.  There are things I have to do...so I need to just do them.  24 hours to mourn and then on with life...right?

Reflect

I love this time of year.

I think it is because I like scarves and sweaters, but I love walking and hearing the crunch of dry leaves under my feet.  I love getting into bed and wrapping myself up in covers to avoid touching any of the cold parts.  I love realizing that another year has passed and I am one year closer to accomplishing a goal I set for myself a long time ago.  I love knowing that this time next year I will be a few months away from graduation...something that I thought I might never do.

I also love conference.  I am sure a million people will write about this, but I love hearing from General Authorities and redefining my life.  I adore those men and their faith and I love to look at my life on sunday evening and see where I am doing well and recognizing areas where I need to improve.  Something about this time of year breeds change, improvement, and just all out peace for me.

CSU comes to Provo

So I am a pretty big BYU football fan.  I go to all the home games, I watch all the away games, and I enjoy doing it.  This weekend was a very unique experience for me.  CSU (where Steve goes to school) came and played against BYU.  Steven and I have been talking about this game since August when I visited CSU campus and it has been a big deal for us.  We even bet on it.

I sat in my seats for the first half of the game with one of Steven's friends who is a BYU fanatic.  It was fun, but for the second half, I sat with Steven and his friends in the CSU section. Now for a year and a half on my mission I heard the most ridiculous things about mormonism and was able to shrug it off as arrogance or ignorance.  In those minutes that I was in the section, I heard things that I have never heard and things that are so ABSOLUTELY absurd...I was pretty upset.

It made me grateful I go to BYU.  I don't claim that we are more highly favored by God because 95% of us are LDS or anything like that, but I am glad that it isn't socially acceptable to show up at a football game completely wasted and say absolutely HORRIBLE things about people they don't even know or a religion they don't understand at all.

It was great that we won.  Steven had to wear a BYU shirt to school today. I'm pretty sure he didn't do it, but regardless, I know I won! :)

Missionary Moments

I don't know what it is about my life, but I always have these experiences that remind me how much I love missionary work and how necessary it is for me to remain active in missionary type activities.

On friday I randomly was on MSN Messenger, something that I do not do very often. While on, I started chatting with a boy who's family we worked with on my mission.  His family has been inactive for a while and he told me he was going to a different church and that the church wasn't true.  We had a good chat and I ended up teaching him the first lesson over chat, which isn't the most spiritual place on the planet, but he did commit to reading the scriptures and praying.

It is hard for me to see people I love struggle so much.  I don't know why my personality causes me to suffer so much in watching others fall away.  The good thing is that every time I have these experiences I am reminded at how much I love the church and am grateful for my testimony.

Funny little side note

Last night in Steven's ward they had a comedy night.  He brought down the house, but some of his friends made us the subject of one of their jokes...

This is Steven with the statistical analysis of himself

Statistical analysis of Steven Goodell


Steven randomly moving to Alaska to work at Home Depot- 98.4%

Steven has a good time in Alaska 87%

Chance of rain in Alaska 13% (+ or - 80%)

Steven finds a girl to go on a date with (who doesn't have a beard) 27%
Said girl accepts 2nd Date 3%

Stevo actually returns from Alaska with a girlfriend .000001%



The next paper said Steven goodell= the Luckiest guy ever. :) cute

A quick little note

I haven't written written on here in a while, so while I have a minute I thought I might write a line or two.

I am currently on CSU campus in Ft. Collins Colorado visiting Steven.  He went to his last class and I decided to stick around their student center and just observe people.  It has been funny to see earrings on campus, girls in short shorts, smokers and other such things you wouldn't ever really see at BYU.  Other than the obvious differences between schools, it is pretty similar.  It is a really pretty campus and I am a fan of how bright and green everything is out here.  For a first trip to Colorado, I am really enjoying life here.

Of course I won't be here permanently,  I head out Sunday after sacrament to get back to Utah and move in to my apartment.  I don't have class until 4pm on Mondays, so I have time between Sunday and Monday to get pretty moved in and get everything settled.  My schedule this year is so strange.  I am finishing up my minor classes by taking three at once. I am not sure if it is a good idea, but I will do the best I can.  The great thing about it is I will be done with those classes after 10 weeks and then I don't have any classes after 2pm on Thursdays and I have no classes on Fridays all semester so I can get out to Colorado quite frequently.  I'm stoked about that.

I am pretty content with life right now.  There isn't a single thing I would change about it.  I am happy, and I love it.  Amazing how that works. :)

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