Not a word about love

I get a little scared sometimes when I think about the future.  Talking to my mom tonight, she asked me what I was going to do after I graduate in December.  My answer? 'I don't know mom, I try not to think about it yet because its a long way off and it scares me to think about.'  That might be a bad attitude, but it is the one I am choosing to have because it helps me not despair because I am not exactly where I thought I would be at 26.


I went to the Oquirrh Mountain temple on Friday with my best friend Hillary. It was GORGEOUS! I absolutely loved (oops did I just say that?) it.  She and I sat in the celestial room whispering about thoughts and things that had been troubling us about where we are and where we want to be.  It was good to talk to her, and it was good to be in the celestial room when we did it because it felt like we were able to speak freely about goals and thoughts and worries.


As we were sitting there, a talk popped into my head that I heard a few years back.  I remember it well because at the time, I really needed to hear it, and as I remembered it I realized that I really needed to hear it again.  It is a talk from October 2007 conference by Spencer J. Codie entitled Claim the Exceeding Great and Precious Promises.  In the talk, Elder Condie talked about the promises that we have been afforded here in this life, and the struggles of seeing them from afar and feeling that they are never going to come.  He uses the analogy of the story of Rachel, a beloved daughter of God, who's greatest desire was only to serve her husband Jacob in giving him children.  How she must have felt seeing her sister and everyone around her baring children and by no fault of her own not being able to have that experience.  At one point, Rachel goes to her husband and tells him, 'Give me children, or else I die.'Elder Condie ends his talk with one of the most powerful statements I have heard in a very long time. 

But with the passage of time, we encounter four of the most beautiful words in holy writ: “And God remembered Rachel” (Genesis 30:22). And she was blessed with the birth of Joseph and later the birth of Benjamin. There are millions on earth today who are descendants of Joseph who have embraced the Abrahamic promise that through their efforts “shall all the families of the earth be blessed, even with the blessings of the Gospel, which are the blessings of salvation, even of life eternal” (Abraham 2:11). When heaven’s promises sometimes seem afar off, I pray that each of us will embrace these exceeding great and precious promises and never let go. And just as God remembered Rachel, God will remember you. I so testify in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

So when my mom asks me who I'm going to date when I move back home after graduation, or when someone asks me where I am going to teach after I graduate, I refuse to worry about it, because I have faith, and I know that eventually, God will remember Jody.