So school started.
You probably noticed that because you haven't heard from me. I have been sucked into the abyss that is full-time teacher-dom (which is totally a word and you can look it up in the dictionary and it will have all sorts of definitions and explanations and even pictures of teachers pulling their hairs out. Try it) Its been a roller coaster to tell you the truth. I have to remind myself on the bad days that I am awesome. And on the good days I have to humble myself by saying tomorrow I probably won't be as awesome as I was today.
But the point is I'm awesome.
I have had some pretty cool moments. Both of my observations (when my department chair comes into my class and decides whether I'm doing my job or not and get to keep my job) have gone really well. Like today when the kiddos were doing a test review and I was monitering and C. decided to ask if I had any Spanish music that was peppier because the song Pandora was playing 'sounded like a bad country song, but at least with country she understood the words'. I laughed and so did my DC. Today a student asked me to make him cookies for his birthday...cuz I'm so domestic and all. I told him I was not made of money. When he rebutted (I love that word) that I was a teacher I gave them the break down of my salary per student and then showed them what I would get paid if I were just BABYSITTING them each day (which comes out to about $220,000 a year...I don't even make a quarter of that) they asked me why I wanted to be a teacher and I simply stated, 'I love to teach!'
Obviously it hasn't all been tie-dyed t-shirts and fruity drinks. I've had some pretty rough days. Last Tuesday in particular just plain out stunk. I have one class that I want to rip their little faces off...in a good way. They just struggle with paying attention and I struggle with dealing with their inability to pay attention and so it is just kind of out of control on so many different levels. We have had some good days and I am learning to applaud the small triumphs (literally, they get high fives and standing ovations because I am that kind of teacher) so that I can hopefully get them where I want them. Anywho, it was a tough day. I called my sister and cried and then she reminded me that I signed up for this line of work and I was like, 'WTHeck...what was I thinking'. Then I got all dressed up to go to the gym, and en-route decided that I wanted Chinese food instead. (Diet starts monday haha).
As I finished up my Mongolian Beef and brocolli I anxiously opened my fortune cookie to see what the fates had in store for me and guess what they said...
Rome wasn't built in a day. Be patient!
And guess what I did
I cried. Duh.
So there I was at my kitchen table, crying over a fortune cookie and thinking, I am so glad that I have a Heavenly Father who knows me well enough to know that that is all I needed.
I am not the only creation that God has ever made, but he knows darn good and well how to treat me like I am his most prized posession and remind me that he loves me just the same...even if I can't teach adjective agreement very well without confusing the kiddos, or I get frustrated and want to give up. He still loves me, and cares how I'm doing and counts the hairs on my chinny chin chin.
So today, I wasn't awesome...but tomorrow?
Either way, at least I'll have something to blog about.